keeping the spirit...

Happy Birthday to the girl that has my heart...my niece! She turns ten today! Hoping to hold this moment forever...hold her innocence and wonder in my heart forever... By the way...I got 2 A's this semester! Whooo, I have reclaimed my throne as a nerd! Super excited, hoping to graduate this coming spring 2013! Things seems to falling into place, with only minor bumps in the road like my court appearance for a minor traffic violation, which I refuse to pay 250 dollars for, when the other driver was obviously making an unsafe lane change! I will continue exercising my rights as a citizen and try to settle at least with the prosecutor. My appearance is set for Jan 7. The judge was inwilling to hear me out, but of what I hear, this is the NORM! Huh? Sigh...oh well...time to keep the season spirit up!...if I can!

Birthday Weekend

Turned the big 2-5 this past sunday, the 12th. Oh, stop the eye rolling. For some, this may be the "oh please shut up girrrrl, you've lived nothing" and I can kindly and proudly say "Oh girrrrl, you know nothing!!!." I may indeed be only 25, but damn it took effort to get here. Despite the adversity, I am here and floating. I haven't drowned even when at times it still feels like I AM. Life is hard, but we must ALL deal with it and find ways to cope. Seems like such a midpoint; half of 50 anyway. It was a good weekend, the people that mattered the most were there. Felt so loved and cared for and that in the end is the most important. The people that want to be part of your life are there; the ones that don't simply aren't. My father even called! He hasn't remembered my birthday in years and it honestly took me by surprise! I almost fell sideways from the shock! It was sweet. We had dinner tonite because he insisted on taking me and paying for it! I couldn't say no. Despite our distance and our falling apart, I still love him. He is important to me and I will miss him when he departs. He is 73 already... Most importantly: So grateful for a wonderful weekend with family and friends.... their friendship and unconditional love is my strength... ....missing my mamacita especially this time of the year. But her love is everywhere;the memories keep her alive.. The love just continues to flow immensely in all directions and I am free of all pain...and so is she...