Update...

I haven't posted here for a while....reason being my mother passed away last monday on June 30. It' s been the hardest 2 weeks for me. She went and she left our lives full of a void; an incessant void that can't be filled with anything. Regardless of how much I miss her, my mother had a hard life. Full of suffering and hospital stays. She had been suffering so much in the last past months, it was her time to go. (that's the nurse in me talking). I did everything in my power for her to be the most comfortable. I took her home and she spent the last of her days at home, with her loved ones. Her fight is over. The pain and agony is gone. My life is completely different now. All my life since I can remember, I dedicated my life to caring for my mother, and now I am glad I did. It has made my healing process a smoother one. My mother was the light of my eyes. She taught me so much and she helped me see the world through different eyes. I'd be nothing if I hadn't had her as my mother. Here is her obituary:

Sylvia Jaramillo Sauceda, 59, entered into eternal life on Monday, June 30, 2008 at her residence.
She was preceded in death by her father, Jose Regino Jaramillo.
She is survived by her daughter, Brenda Sauceda, son, Jorge Jaramillo, mother, Rosa Jaramillo, granddaughter, Alexia Jaramillo, brothers and sisters, Ricardo Jaramillo, Graciela Sandoval, Josefina Jaramillo, Jaime Jaramillo, Joel Jaramillo, and Jose Luis Jaramillo.
Funeral service will be held at 10 a.m., today, Wednesday, July 2, 2008 at Trevino Funeral Home with interment to follow at Buena Vista Burial Park.

I'm still trying to find ways to fill that void...I'm thinking I need a hobby or at least a kitty. I need ideas.