Engaged!

I'm engaged with the most wonderful man on this earth. He proposed to me on Thurs evening before we went to go watch The Dark Knight. I guess it might be kind of dorky but, I loved it. I'm so happy and now I'm busy, busy busy. We've set a date for December 27, 2008 and we've even gone to look at a reception. I think we were both sold on that place. It's location is on a couple of very naturistic acres with a beautiful victorian style home, in which we can host the party. Full of trees, the home has a place for the bride and the groom to dress, and a lake at the front of the home. Can it get any better? The price ain't too shaby either. I really hope we can book it. It be perfect.

<3

Love: I love the way you look at me. The way you hold me. The way you make me feel the princess of this raging, frivolous world.

<3

B

The Dark Knight

This weekend was pretty rad, but long. I helped my love move into his small, but cozy apartment and i helped him decorate. Nothing beats decorating. I was off for 3 days in a row and nothing beats that either. That hadn't happened in a while. Somehow work always ruins my weekends and calls me in. lolz. I don't have to come in, but the extra cash is always nice. I hit the beach on saturday like I had planned and it was packed. I didn't achieve the well-planned tan I wanted, but it was very relaxing. Sunday my boyfriend and I went to watch Hellboy and had a delicious meal at a genuine pizza parlor in town. It was great. I'm a rat for Guillermo del Toro films. Pans Labyrinth, the orphanage and now hellboy. Whooohooo. He has a huge imagination. We've bought tickets for the midnight show on thurs for The Dark Knight. Robert and I can't wait to see it. He's a total nerd about it. HEATH LEDGER'S last film!!!

Today I had my first trombone lesson. It was fun. My boyfriend is a total band geek as well. He's a director at a nearby middle school and he opted to teach me this summer. It brought me memories from back in the day. I used to play baritone in middle school. Apparently I have a good buzzz. lol. He made me lunch and we ate. Then I came to work. I'm scheduled to work Mon, Tues, Fri-Sun. Off Wed and Thurs. I plan to lay around and do absolutely nothing those days.

I've payed my bills, and I have the rest of my check to spend on whatever the hell I want. Here are my bills:

>Car Payment

>Insurance

>Cell Phone Bill

>Credit Card

>Victorias Secret Credit Card

>Hospital Bill

>Cleaning Lady that helps us out from time to time

>School (I will be attending fall semester to finish up my bachelors) $$$$$$$

So the only thing that is pending right now is my school payment. It adds up to like 700 dlls. Eeesh hole in my pocket.

anywho, im out of ideas.

peace.

Sleepless...

I'm a total insomniac. My life is ruled by sleepness nights. Big part of it is my job. I really want to switch to the day shift, but apparently night is skinny and i'm too fat to fit in days. ha. I hate being backward. I feel as if i'm living my life backwards. Socializing, eating, pooping at night. Catching zzz's at day. I'm lonely. I miss my mommy. It's been only 2wks since her death and it feels as if it was yesterday. I'm still looking for a hobby to fill that void. I haven't gone to the beach in a while. Maybe I'll go swimming, or go lay on the sand. That would be great. I'm scheduled to be off for this weekend. I don't know if that will happen. I need to make up the days I was out. I don't know. There is always time to work. To make money. Never enough time to live life. To appreciate everything around us. I'm tired. This shift will end soon. Until then. Peace.

Update...

I haven't posted here for a while....reason being my mother passed away last monday on June 30. It' s been the hardest 2 weeks for me. She went and she left our lives full of a void; an incessant void that can't be filled with anything. Regardless of how much I miss her, my mother had a hard life. Full of suffering and hospital stays. She had been suffering so much in the last past months, it was her time to go. (that's the nurse in me talking). I did everything in my power for her to be the most comfortable. I took her home and she spent the last of her days at home, with her loved ones. Her fight is over. The pain and agony is gone. My life is completely different now. All my life since I can remember, I dedicated my life to caring for my mother, and now I am glad I did. It has made my healing process a smoother one. My mother was the light of my eyes. She taught me so much and she helped me see the world through different eyes. I'd be nothing if I hadn't had her as my mother. Here is her obituary:

Sylvia Jaramillo Sauceda, 59, entered into eternal life on Monday, June 30, 2008 at her residence.
She was preceded in death by her father, Jose Regino Jaramillo.
She is survived by her daughter, Brenda Sauceda, son, Jorge Jaramillo, mother, Rosa Jaramillo, granddaughter, Alexia Jaramillo, brothers and sisters, Ricardo Jaramillo, Graciela Sandoval, Josefina Jaramillo, Jaime Jaramillo, Joel Jaramillo, and Jose Luis Jaramillo.
Funeral service will be held at 10 a.m., today, Wednesday, July 2, 2008 at Trevino Funeral Home with interment to follow at Buena Vista Burial Park.

I'm still trying to find ways to fill that void...I'm thinking I need a hobby or at least a kitty. I need ideas.