I've noticed I have a really hard time controlling my anger. I'm real sweet and all, but I tend to bottle up my anger and then I notice that it only takes one small comment, one small insignificant thing and there I go ravaging into this ridiculous anger burst. After I'm overmyself, I realize how retarded and how ignorant I was acting. I say some of the most ridiculous things when I'm angry. Even things I don't mean. I feel guilty to say that I've even said I hate you to people I love. I hate being hurtful. But, believe it or not, sometimes I feel like I am not at control of my own self... Then I end up feeling depressed and sad for the way I was acting. I feel really crummy and I'm running out of ideas to control this nasty habit. I recently got into it with my fiance and the funny thing is that now I don't even remember what the argument was about (everything is okay now). But this definetly needs to stop... I hate arguing, I hate fighting and I hate making people feel bad.Boo for me.
Arghhh.
O_O
1 comment:
I have no problem with having a less than heated discussion with anyone. there is nothing greater than a debate...if you will. But when that debate escalates into an argument, then it is time to walk away from the conversation.
You can see yourself getting heated, and whomever it is you are bantering with is feeding into your anger(even though they may not know it at the time), so politely walk away from the conversation. And tell your friend,partner, fiance, that you know this is getting out of control for you(Take ownership of your anger) and you would rather leave the conversation where it is.
Take a deep breath and find a cup of good coffee!
It's me Red.
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