Now

I've sort of dissapeared from here for a while. I suppose my life has been a rowdy mess since my mom passed away. It's been difficult. Filled with emotional outburts and breakdowns. I've also been super busy with the whole wedding planning thing. It's harder than I thought. So many things to do. So many things to pay for. Geeeeez. The place was overall pretty expensive. But it's a great place. I don't have any doubts in my mind that I want to marry this man and that I want to do it in the scene of nature. Since my mom's passing, I've been overall closer to nature itself. More appreciative of it. I guess all this makes me realize how much of nature we are part of. How we are part of nature, not nature part of our lives. I recently got a tatt of a cherry blossom on my back with my the inscription Mom and her date of Birth and Death.

So why the cherry blossom?

The cherry blossom is a very delicate flower that blooms for a very short time. For the Japanese this represents the transience of life. This concept ties in very deeply with the fundamental teachings of Buddhism that state all life is suffering and transitory. This also has been extended to the life of a warrior whose life was ended early in battle.

Gives me shivers.

Well, I'll try to keep myself updated on here.

latas.