Beauty and Disaster.

You know, it's hard to believe that after seeing so much beauty, so much wonder, people continue to believe that nature is part of our lives, and not the other way around. We are nature. We are merely an infestation to this earth. We are slowly heading towards becoming another one of those dwarf planets. It's really scary and it's really REAL. The planet is our only home. No other planet has been found yet to sustain life. The planet is becoming sicker and sicker every day. Our ice-caps are melting. Our sea-level is rising every year.


Please be eco-friendly.
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She's still here...

So I bought a box of shrimp from one of the nurses, who's husband is a shrimper and we are going to have a fried fish/shrimp day tommorow at my future brother in law's home. I srsly can't wait. Call me a fattie, but I've never been so excited. I loooove shrimp. and fish. and oysters. and calamari. yum-o

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My mother's 60's birthday would have been on Saturday September 27th. It was a sad day, but regardless of that, it was very memorable, full of epiphanies on life and memories. I realized how much I'm like my mother and how much I've grown because of her. She pushed me to my limits even when I didn't want to. Pushed me to become a woman. A woman of strength and honesty. She showed me to be strong, have courage and to love the people around that really care to be there. She showed me how to love, how to give the best of yourself to the ones that deserve it. She helped me let go of the past, and learn from my mistakes. Believe it or not, she has helped me love my fiance. She showed me how to be a good woman, how to take care of others, and how to be a good wife, hopefully soon. I'd be lost if I hadn't had her instruction. She's given me so much, but mainly a second chance on life.

Wedding Planning

I bought my wedding dress this past sunday. Obviously, not this one, but I thought this photo was neat when I saw it. I bought it in mcallen and it was the last one that I tried on. It is ivory in colour and the veil matches in design with the dress. A bitter sweet moment for me. Felt so right, but felt so painful at the same time. My mother wasn't there. The most important person in the world was not there to see me. I know she is heaven looking down on me, but I can't help and be but selfish and want her here with me. I know, I know. Everything that she was going through wan't fair for her to go through. She endured so much... She lived in so much pain. I miss her so much. I miss her warmthness, her love, her presence....

It added up to a total of 900 dollars and that really burnt a hole in our pockets, but hey you only do get married once. Not going bankrupt though, but I am planning to make our wedding memorable. I still need to set up the photography. I've been working on my party favors and I'm still undecided on the type of flowers for my bouquet. I had originally chosen a water lily, but since the water lily is white, it might not make a good contrast with the ivory dress..I don't want to be anal, but little things like that bother me sometime...I suppose I am anal. HA HA HA.

So many things to do...
So little time.
Toodles.

earthy question

"If the planet dies, you die. If you die the planet survives."

mmm?

late...

So...I had to work wednesday night. I srsly closed my eyes for a second and the next thing you know it, I'm getting a phone call stating "Where are you?" I look at the time and I realize holy mole it's 705 pm and I'm supposed to be there at 645 pm. If it wasn't for that phone call, I'd still be napping. I didn't put my alarm because I closed my eyes around 130 pm. I didn't think I'd sleep in for 5 hrs...Ugghhhh. So there I go running around the house, putting my scrubs on and getting my things together. I'm usually never late....

Freal.

Other than that, I had 2 amazing days off. I achieved in getting some things off my checklist for the wedding and I made an appt for sunday so I can go try on wedding dressings. It will be a bitter sweet moment for me, due to the fact that the most important person that I want to be there, won't... my mother. But, everyone says she'll be watching me from heaven. and I hope so.

I went to my first strip joint on tues night. It was quite an experience. Although the drinks sucked, I have to admit some of those girls are talented. Some of them really made love to that pole. LMAO. I even got a lap dance! hahah Never say never... until you try it once. We ended the night early because he had to work in the morning. Overall, we bonded well these two days. I'm looking foward to having this weekend off...will keep ya posted.

B

The Moon Kingdom

The story of Sailor Moon begins long ago, during the Silver Millennium. It was a very happy time, when all the planets were joined together in harmony and peace. The Moon Kingdom was the happiest place of all. The ruler of all the planets was Queen Serenity. She had a daughter, Serena, whom she was raising in her footsteps. Every night there would be parties and fireworks. Serena would attend all of the parties but she spent most of her time staring at the earth, for she had fallen in love with a man from the earth. His name was Prince Darien and he would go to the Moon kingdom fairly often just to see Serena. On this particular night, Serena was more dreamy then usual.While everyone else was inside at the party laughing and talking, Serena was outside on the balcony, staring at the Earth. Suddenly, Darien appeared. He told Serena that evil forces called the Negaverse had attacked the earth. As the Prince of the Earth he had fought very intensively, but these Negaverse creatures were much stronger than he and his warriors were. They planned to attack the Moon next and he would fight as hard as he could to protect it. Then a guard came along shouting "Spy! Spy! Come on, men! We have a spy!" and began chasing Darien. "Good-bye, my princess. I will see you again." Darien said, before he raced away, the guards behind him.Serena stood there for a few more minutes, then returned to the party. Just as she was reached the bottom of the steps leading to the Grand Ballroom, a hand reached for hers. It was Darien. He began to dance with her and he told her that Queen Serenity had asked him to stay and help fight the Negaverse. Suddenly, Luna and Artemis ran though the crowd shouting, "Battle! Battle! The Negaverse has struck! We need as many warriors as we can get!" Darien disappeared into the crowd and then Sailor Mars, Jupiter, Mercury, and Venus (who were princesses of their own respected planets, but part of Serena's court as well) blasted the Negaverse with their power. Serena ran onto the balcony and was confronted by Queen Beryl.Darien jumped in between them. He held his sword in front of him. "Hello, Darien." Queen Beryl smiled her evil smile. "I've heard about you. A great warrior like you, how could I not? The dark side always needs great warriors. Why don't you join me? Rule the world at my side, as the king, and taste the glory of victory." "I don't think so." Darien replied. "I don't team up with snakes like you. Cold ugly snakes that have no heart or soul." "No one speaks to Queen Beryl that way!" she barked. Then she blasted Darien and he float listlessly toward him in a beam of light. Serena was horrified. "Darien!" she cried." Run, Serena! Run!" Darien shouted. " No! I want to be with you!" Serena ran toward him and leapt off the balcony toward him, into the light. When their fingers touched they both became lifeless. Queen Serenity ran outside. "No! She's taken them both! No, no! Serena! Come back!" She cried. "No, no. Not the Princess." Luna began to cry.Queen Beryl cackled. "Perfect. Just perfect. The prince and the princess are with me. Just perfect. " Queen Beryl laughed. Queen Beryl unleashed her fiercest warriors, The Seven Shadows, at Queen Serenity and her palace. They destroyed the Moon Kingdom until all was left of it were ruins. Then they headed for her. "Cosmic Moon Power!" Queen Serenity shouted. The seven shadows and the entire Negaverse vanished in a cloud of dust. Queen Serenity fell to her knees and leaned against a column."Queen Serenity, you destroyed them!" Luna appeared beside her. "I trapped them in my crystal, yes. For if I had destroyed them I would of destroyed Serena and her court." Artemis appeared suddenly. Queen Serenity took the Silver Crystal off of her Crescent Moon Wand. "Queen Serenity, if you do that you won't have any power left!" Artemis protested. "It's the only way for Serena and her court to live on. And for the seven shadows to be concealed. The seven shadows will be reborn in humans. If any danger appears I trust you'll be there to alert the Sailor Scouts." Suddenly, The Silver Crystal began to float above her hand higher and higher until it was seen no more. " Good-bye now. Take care. And good-bye, my darling daughter. We shall meet again." Queen Serenity called after it. She reached upward and suddenly, her eyes closed and she became lifeless. The Queen was dead. "Queen Serenity!" shouted Artemis and Luna. Suddenly, they were both concealed in containers and floated toward earth. Serena and her court were in little bubbles floating toward earth safe and sound. They were all reborn on earth with no memory or recollection of the Moon Kingdom or the Silver Millennium. But one fateful day, Queen Beryl rose again and that's when The Moon Princess finally awoke to her destiny.

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I also forgot to mention I'm a sucker for anime, especially Sailor moon! Ultimately favorite love stories of all times!

crunch and munch on this.

God. Srly, why does food have to be so deliciously decadent. I hate being in a dietttttt. Its scary to see that the word diet has the word DIE in it. I know, I know. So why then do it?

• I need to fit into my wedding dress
• I have a tendency to become overweight if I don't.
• I used to be obese and I don't want that.
• I'm a nurse and I know better not to let myself become risky to my own health.

The story is, I used to be really overweight when I was younger. Then one day I decided to change my eating habits and lose weight. I'm pretty healthy now. I'm only about 135 lbs and 5'3", but if I let myself go, I know i'll explode.

FREAL.

Plus, I know better than to become unhealthy. I work in a cardiac floor and it never fails when I see young men and woman, early 30's 40's with occluded veins and bad hearts. It totally kicks me in the heart, to see them at that state. Plus, not only heart disease, but diabetes as well.

I might sound like a hypochondriac, but being around disease around the clock, makes you a little more aware of everything that's out there.

So... I might munch on a apple instead of this. mmmcrunch.

Ike please don't come.

Dane Cook. Ahhh, what can I say. The sexiest man alive. not exactly, but pretty perfect. There is just something about this guy. That devilish look in his eyes. Bad boys are always good trouble. Anywho, just thought I'd place this photo in for fun. Working late makes me delirious at times. It's 444 am and I'm dying to go home, regardless if it isn't it to go to sleep. I have to do several errands this morning. Go to the gym, continue with the details of the weddings and so forth. And then prepare for Ike. Ike who? The damn hurricane we are supposed to be getting. Jesus, how often do we have to go thru this. Funny thing, it always happens on the weekends I'm scheduled to work. Funny thing is that they'll probably make me stay since the streets will more likely be flooded and the rain will be swarming the town. That means only one thing. I'll be breathing, eating and shitting hospital. Ahhhhhh. So i'm praying. [literally] that we don't get hit. I don't want to have to spend the night/day here at the hospital. Either way I'm screwed, because I have to work all weekend and live thru the hurricane, both things bite. Anyways, I'm done. Need to attend to my patients.

peace.

Now

I've sort of dissapeared from here for a while. I suppose my life has been a rowdy mess since my mom passed away. It's been difficult. Filled with emotional outburts and breakdowns. I've also been super busy with the whole wedding planning thing. It's harder than I thought. So many things to do. So many things to pay for. Geeeeez. The place was overall pretty expensive. But it's a great place. I don't have any doubts in my mind that I want to marry this man and that I want to do it in the scene of nature. Since my mom's passing, I've been overall closer to nature itself. More appreciative of it. I guess all this makes me realize how much of nature we are part of. How we are part of nature, not nature part of our lives. I recently got a tatt of a cherry blossom on my back with my the inscription Mom and her date of Birth and Death.

So why the cherry blossom?

The cherry blossom is a very delicate flower that blooms for a very short time. For the Japanese this represents the transience of life. This concept ties in very deeply with the fundamental teachings of Buddhism that state all life is suffering and transitory. This also has been extended to the life of a warrior whose life was ended early in battle.

Gives me shivers.

Well, I'll try to keep myself updated on here.

latas.